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March 10 Well, well, wellHello everyone! Been a minute, hasn't it? This seems to be my MO now, right? Hopefully I can stick to it this time. I get tired of posting, and a week later I fall off the wagon. So, this time, I wanted to be consistent for a few weeks and then post. I DID IT!!! I'm now in my third week of healthy eating and working out! Yay Me!!!
As far as the what I weighed before I started again . . . I was back up to my original weight, unfortunately. I didn't go to WW, but my scale confirmed that for me. Matter of fact, I haven't been back to WW. I'm going on Saturday to see how I am doing, scale-wise. I actually ended up doing a weight loss challenge with my friends and family. That'll be motivation to keep going (money is at stake, LOL). The longer it goes on, the more likely I am to make it habit! I even joined a gym (LA Fitness)! I don't think I am going to keep the membership because to be honest, I have everything I need at home. Why pay for an elliptical when I have one. That's all I really do at the gym. I also lifted a couple of free weights . . . but I have those at home too. So, really, what's the point?
I just wanted to update everyone and list some new goals so you know I haven't dropped off the face of the Earth!
Have a fabulous evening everyone.
282.6/282.6/130 February 03 I Suck!Well, not really, LOL. When I call it a journey, boy did I mean it is a journey! After my phenominal weigh in . . . what did I do? I went right back to old habits. I haven't been back to WW to weigh in since then. AT the end of that week, I ended up going out of town, and I did horribly. Then this weekend was the Super Bowl, so I used that as an excuse to throw the week away. I had a pretty good day yesterday, and I was considering going back today to see exactly where I am. If I do that, I won't be able to weigh in again until next Saturday. I kinda want to go weigh in this Saturday. Hopefully, when I weigh in, I'll be back at my 10 pound weight loss. That would be great!
I'm finding it so hard for me to stick to healthy eating. It isn't that the healthy food is bad . . . it's just that I want the bad stuff. I guess I have to MAKE myself do the right things until I no longer have those cravings. To add insult to injury . . . last night was the first time I actually attempted to exercise. I bought an elliptical back in September, and this is the first time I have tried to use it (how sad is that, LOL). I mean, I tested it out right after I put it together, and everything seemed fine. Well, I was on for not more than two minutes when I noticed this noise and the circle thing protruded on one side. So, of course the manufacturor's warranty is up in 90 days . . . so I had to purchase a new warranty for them to come out to fix it. That sucks because it was obviously the machine since I haven't used the darn thing, LOL. I guess it suits me right! Had I been working out like I should have been, I would have found the problem the first time I used it. Well, can't cry over spilled milk, right? It just sucks that the first time I try to work out, I'm thrown a curve ball. Nothing but the devil trying to keep me fat!!!
I am considering not taking new pictures or measurements this month because there won't be any real difference. I am so anal, though, that months from now it will probably bother me that I am missing a month of pictures. HUMMMM . . . what I might do is change the pictures to be dated this month, along with the statistics. They probably have not changed. Or, I could take new pictures and put the last weigh in as my current weight and leave the rest of my statistics alone. Or, I could update my pictures and statistics every two months. Nahhhh, I don't like that idea, LOL!!! Okay, I think I will take new pictures, and put the last weigh in as my current weight, since I have not weighed in since then, and I will leave the statistics alone. Okay, problem solved.
Today, I am going to do my walking tape since I can't use my elliptical (F*CK!!!
 ) Also TOM is here, so I am not really feeling up to it, but I am going to make it happen! Let me say something else kinda off the exercise topic . . . I have to reach my goals. I just have to. I am so unhappy where I am. I hate the way I look, and more importantly, I have the way I feel. Nothing should be more important to me than my health, and I am disgusted that I keep allowing life to get in the way of doing what it will take to prolong that very thing (my life). I am better than this. I can do better than this. I MUST do better than this. So, as much as I don't feel like working out, I am going to. As much as I would prefer something unhealthy, I will sacrifice. As much as I love being a slack ass, I love me more. I am the only one who has the power to change my life. Regardless of the day I have had at work, I can't use that as an excuse to eat poorly and not workout. What it all boils down to is that there will always be SOMETHING. Something that I can use as an excuse not to do what I know is the right thing. I have to move past that. I'll be 29 years old this year, and I want to be comfortably at goal by the time I'm 30. I don't want to start the next decade of my life with regrets about the previous one. My time is now.282.6/272.0/130 July 30 Okie DokieLooks-a like-a I'll be starting over yet again, unfortunately. I haven't actually been home since July 10th and have ZERO control on the road, so you know what that means. Prior to July 10th, I spent a week or so in Daytona Beach, and prior to that was my 10 year high school reunion here in Atlanta. I've been going going going. I have NOT been counting points or working out. No one to blame but myself. I am so ready to be moved here (in Atlanta) and settled down so that I can get back on track. I find it so difficult to stay on plan when I feel like everything else is out of control.
I am in the process of trying to mentaly prepare myself for starting over. I know I can do it, that's not the issue. The issue is actually doing it. I haven't stood on a scale in quite a while, but I know it's terrible by th way my clothes fit. Again, I'm not going to get depressed because I know how to remedy it . . . just do what I am suppose to do, LOL!
I'm still working on finding a teaching job. There are several openings that I have applied for and I haven't been called for any. I don't know what these schools are thinking. School starts back in a few weeks, and they don't have the teachers they need. And here I am begging for a job, LOL. Wherever God wants me is where I'll be, I guess. I have faith.
Oh yeah, I have pics from the reunion that I will load up when I get back home. I hope everyone else is doing well on your weight loss journies, and I'll be right back there with you as soon as I get it back together.
Have a FABULOUS afternoon!
And Moe, thank you so much hun! June 04 I'm Guilty. . . of being a slacking lurker! I come on here all the time and read over past blogs. I look at a lot of your blogs as well. I do this in hopes of getting myself back on track. It's tough this time. Yesterday, all in all, was a good day. I even worked out! I've been having these horrible cravings, and sometimes I feel that my mind isn't stronger than these cravings. I KNOW I am stronger, but I have to stop submitting to them. I'm getting better and better each day. This weight loss thing is a journey, and sometimes we get lost. Now, I'm working to find my way back to the main road. I've gained about 15 pounds, which is not good, but it isn't horrible considering I gained ALL of my weight back the time before. I thank God for the small things. I'm looking forward to today being an even better day than yesterday. I didn't take progress pictures, nor did I take my measurements for the month. I haven't even been back to WW (though they still get my money, LOL). I'm so sorry about that, but I just wasn't ready to face the numbers. I am going to have good news to report in July, though. I'm looking forward to that.
My goal right now is to get back to 225 by my high school reunion. I wanted to be 215 pounds, but that probably won't happen. And that's okay. I'll be there soon enough! One day at a time right now. I'm focusing on each meal, each snack, each workout, each day. The last day of school is tomorrow (for the kids) so I'm very pleased about that. I haven't decided if I am going to work over the summer. I might do some tutoring, but I want to focus mainly on working out hard. I want to start working out twice a day. . . doing a regular workout and some walking or the elliptical. I want to kick butt this summer. I really want to be below 200 pounds when I move back to Atlanta at the end of July. I don't know if that is possible, but we shall see.
Alrighty, have a fabulous day!
267.2/?240?/130 May 19 Been a MinuteHey everyone! I'm so sorry I haven't been blogging regularly, but I have been so over-worked lately. It's the end of the school year, and I have had so much to do lately. I'm trying to get everything done, and it doesn't seem like there are enough hours in the day! I'm sure you know how that is! No, ,I am not back on track like I should have been. I didn't do bad during the daytime, because I packed my lunch and everything . . . but the problems mainly start by the time I got home. My first mistake was not going to the grocery store. By not going to the store, there was really not a complete meal. Then, I was too tired and lazy to go during the week. It was just much easier to just pick up something. Going to Atlanta didn't help either. I had done really well on Mother's Day, but I don't know what happened after that.
Well, today is a new day! I made a protein shake for breakfast this morning, and I have a nice salad for lunch. I need to go by the store to pick up a few things along with water, but I AM GOING TODAY! I also am going to workout today. It's been a week since I've done that. Also, I have not been to WW for two weeks. Yes, I suck, LOL. I goofed off for two weeks, now it's time to get back on track. That's exactly what I am going to do.
Gotta go, have a FABULOUS afternoon!
267.2/225.6/130 May 08 Sucky WeekBoy, have I sucked this week! I have not been working out, nor have I been eating well. I don't know what is wrong with me this week! You know what, yes I do. Last time when I got to this weight (in 2006) I started to self-sabotage. I didn't do it consciously, but, nevertheless, I did it. It seems like I am doing the same exact thing now. Well, it is coming to an end TODAY. I brought my normal healthy lunch, and am going to the grocery store to get something healthy for dinner tonight. I'm also going to work out tonight, for the first time all week. No more slacking for me!
Okay, so I got an interview at a school in Atlanta, and it is scheduled for Monday, May 12th. So, I have no choice but to miss a couple days of work next week. That also means that I will be out of town for the weekend. I have to make sure that I stay on track during that time. I can't afford to be eating like crap just because I'm in Atlanta. Hopefully, I will get the job. That will be a total load off my mind. One less thing to worry about when I move.
My main focus for this week is getting back on track. So I am setting goals for myself. I am doing my soy and whey protein, along with a healthy dinner and two snacks. Tonight, I am also going to do a sculpting tape and, hopefully, the elliptical for 30 minutes. I probably won't weigh in this week. It depends on what time I leave for Atlanta. Truthfully, I don't want to see what I weigh.
Okay, I'll have better news for you all tomorrow! Have a fabulous day!
267.2/225.6/130 April 07 Confession, AgainI was OFF THE CHAIN this week in Atlanta. I totally didn't think about my diet, as apparent in what I ate for dinner. I did do well pretty much during the day, but it was dinner that sucked for my weight loss. I know I went to Red Lobster 3 or 4 times {SMH
 }. That's not the only place I went, either. Have you ever eaten so much bad food that you just don't want anything? Well, that's how I feel. I pretty mych gained the same amount of weight this past week as I did the previous weekend that I screwed up. Thankfully it wasn't worse. I was able to workout that one day during the week, but since I got blisters from doing it and my muscles were screaming because I didn't stretch afterwards, I used that as an excuse not to workout anymore.
Now I'm back home, and back on the grind. Granted I got home on Saturday night and went to Red Lobster for dinner
 , I am back on track now. I am doing this high protien (soy and whey) diet for the week to jump start back my metabolism. Then I am going to go back to the WW plan. I want to have loss all the weight I have gained over last week by this week's weigh in. Obviously, I didn't weigh in last week, but I will definitely be doing so this weekend. I was looking back on my weigh ins and see that I have missed several. I am vowing to attend every weigh in, good or bad, until the end of the school year. I will not be going out of town for the rest of this school year, so there is no excuse. I also am going to stay on plan for that time. By the end of March, I wanted to lose 40 pounds. That didn't happen. I am very disappointed, but I have no one else to blame but myself. It's my fault, I've taken credit, now I must move on. I have three more weigh ins for the month, and the next weigh in will probably put me back close to where I was. That leaves me with two weigh ins for the month. I really need to be down 40 pounds by the end of the month. That would be seven pounds in two weeks. WOW, I guess that's doable. Regardless, I'm going to do the best I can, so I am going to be proud with that. I am also going to workout four times this week. I'm contemplating working out today, but regardless, I'll do four days by Saturday night.
Okay, I'm off to a successful week! Wish me luck!
BTW, I just deleted my other site, so it is no longer avaiable.
267.2/234.2/130 March 24 Back From the ATLOkay, so I'm back from Atlanta, and I must admit that I ate HORRIBLY!! And now it's over, and I'm back on the grind. I didn't go to work today, but I was very productive at home. I went to the gym and did over 65 minutes on the elliptical (I thought I'd die, LOL) AND I washed my car. It has been a good minute since I have worked out, so I think I did pretty well. I also have done a great job eating today. I haven't even really been hungry. I guess I shouldn't be with all I ate this weekend, LMAO!! When I stepped on the scale this morning, I just about died! I am still carrying around the water weight from TOM and all the excess calories I have had this weekend didn't help. I'd be very happy just to be at 233.8 pounds on Saturday's weigh in. Sad, I know. I'd probably faint if I found that I loss anything, and I'd definitely blackout if I got below 230, LOL. I've really got to learn how to cheat and not be totally off the chain. I do fine at home, but when I get out of town, it's a whole different story.
Okay, so I'm going back to Atlanta for Spring Break (leaving Friday night). I am taking my walking tapes, and I plan on cooking the majority of the time. I also plan on making better choices when I go out to eat. The truth is, this past weekend, I didn't even think about eating well. This week, I WILL. Since I gained this week, I think I have a great chance of losing a good amount of weight over the next couple of weeks. I plan on doing just that. I've just got to stick to the plan. The rest of this month, and all of next month, I WILL be successful and reach all of my goals.
Okay, have a fabulous rest of the afternoon.
267.2/233.8/130 March 05 Confession is ALWAYS Good for the SoulOkay, so it's confession time. This weekend (Saturday and Sunday) I had less than admirable eating habits. I totally disregarded Weight Watchers' principles. Now, I didn't go out and eat totally fatty meals along with dessert, but I did overeat a bit. Also, I didn't exercise since last Wednesday. I had planned on working out Saturday and Sunday, but I just didn't. That sucks. Well, I am totally back on track. I have been eating on plan since Monday and I did WATP 2 mile this morning. Tonight, I will get on the elliptical and try to do 65 minutes. I might not be able to do it, though, because of the lapse in my workouts prior to this morning. I'm still gonna try!
After I worked out this morning (at work), I felt so energized and strong. I felt much more relaxed and actually didn't dread my day. I think getting in 30 minutes of heart-pumping exercise in the morning is great fuel to start off my day. I'm thinking about doing it every morning I have to work. This mini workout will not impact the other exercise I do in the evening, but it could serve as a pick-me-up on those days that I just want to go back to bed. Something to think about.
Also, I still have not taken my pictures for the month. I honestly won't get to it until probably Friday or Saturday. My main focus for the time I have after work between now and next weigh in is to burn off this excess weight (from my little indiscresion
 ). I'm getting my hair braided tomorrow afternoon, so I think I am going to wake up early tomorrow and do the 4 mile walk. I also want to get in the 2 mile walk with my co-worker during school tomorrow. I usually make Friday a rest day, but I am going to try to get in another 2 miles during the day and do the elliptical on Friday after work. I have a meeting during my planning period on Friday, so I don't know if the 2 mile walk will be possible then. Hopefully the meeting does not last longer than 30 minutes. If it doesn't, I'll still have time to do it. I guess I could always do 15 minutes during my planning and 15 minutes at the beginning of lunch. I'll make it happen. I need to do something to make up for all the lack of exercise.Hopefully I'll have a loss this week. It would be great to get down to 235 pounds. That would actually be FREAKING AWESOME!!!! That may not be possible this week due to my naughtiness on Saturday and Sunday. But hey, it's worth a shot.
Okay, confession time is over . . . have a fabulous afternoon!
267.2/238.4/130 December 27 Finding My GrooveToday I did ABS with FMI Allie, and she kicked my butt!!! I haven't worked out since last Friday (almost a week), and I could definitely tell. Then I ate terribly last night (hence why I said I was starting today), so I could feel all that bad stuff pulling me down. I wasn't able to do all of the moves on the step, but I did do the moves on the floor when I felt like I wanted to pass out. The important thing is that I kept going throughout the whole workout. I paused the dvd between sets and had my water, as usual. My back bothered me a little because it still hasn't recovered from sleeping on an air matress. I have found that I need either a bed or the floor, LOL. The air matress tends to sag as the night goes on and doesn't offer much support, and I need it. Also the workout I did today has a lot of weight lifting and back work. My body isn't use to that yet, so it was a little tender. It feels pretty good right now, though, which is WONDERFUL. I am scheduled to workout tomorrow and Saturday, and I will rest on Sunday. Starting Monday (12/31/07) I will be following the Firm beginner's rotation (for the Transfirmer) which is 4 days on/ 3 days off then 3 days on/ 4 days off. I might also incorporate WATP on the weeks where I only workout 3 days. I want to start with four days per week, then go up to five and eventually six. It will take me some time to build up, but I know I can do it.
Today, my eating is back on track as well. I've had one cup of Kashi cereal and one cup of FF milk (4 points). I'm also going to be going to the grocery store so that I can eat well for this week and next. I must admit that I am a little nervous about weighing in this week. I stood on the scale this morning and it said (holding breath) 261.0 pounds
 . I know that it is because of what I had this weekend, but I also know that the same amount of time of working out and eating right will put me right back on track. Hopefully I can get back to where I was last week for the weigh in. If not, I know that I will more than make up for it the following weigh in. See, that's the reason I did not want to go out of town for the holidays. I knew that I was not going to do right. I did try though. I even did well on the Saturday I got there. Every other day sucked, though, LOL. Well, can't cry over spilled milk. The important thing is that I am back on track. At least I didn't fall off the wagon for several days following returning home. It's so easy to do that. I'm so glad that I was able to get right back "in my groove." Praise the Lord!Okay, I have to be going now, so have a fab day!
267.2/255.4/130 June 22 AftermathI am so FREAKIN lazy!!! I have found that since I came back from Vegas, I just don't feel like doing anything. I think this stems from the fact that I was sick during my trip. No, it is no excuse, but I think it may be a cause. I have not really been eating right. I have done well for breakfast and lunch, but it all goes south with dinner. Also, I have not felt like working out. As you know, I skipped Monday's workout, but I did workout Tuesday and Wednesday. Today, I just plain ole didn't feel like it. Tomorrow is a scheduled rest day. With that said, I have made a decision . . . I will take today and tomorrow as a rest day, and get back to my workout routine on Saturday (this is a good day because I don't have to work). As far as my eating goes . . . I will continue to do well for breakfast and lunch. As far as dinner goes, tonight, I know what I'm having, so it will be healthy. I will probably allow myself a splurge Friday and Saturday night . . . but on Sunday, I HAVE TO get back on it. This is the first real "rut" that I have been in since I started in November of last year. I guess I should consider myself lucky. I refuse to beat up on myself about this, but I know that I have to get back to the "zone" I was in for the first six months of this journey. This is no time for failure.
Also, I am going grocery shopping on Saturday, so there will be plenty of healthy stuff for me to eat in the house. I will also go back to only eating out for my Saturday meal and maybe a few Applebee's nights in between. I must start back cooking like I was. Like I said, I'm not going to beat myself up. For the next couple of days, I am going to mentally prepare myself, and remind myself as to why I was doing this in the first place. I can do this . . . I will do this. Don't you worry!
With that said, any words of encouragement that you would like to offer me . . . I'd be more than happy to hear them. The comments that are left really do help, believe it or not.
As far as my weigh in for Saturday goes, I am contemplating whether or not I should go. On one hand, I know that I should go to "face the music" of the past week I have had and, to find out where I am and how hard I need to work to lose any weight gained. On the other hand, I just don't want to go because I know that there will be a substantial gain, and I don't want to have to see it. I know that going is the right choice to make, but I know how easily I gain weight when I go off for a few days, and I just don't want to see that huge gain. I'll think and pray on it.
Alright ladies and gents . . .
Have a  day!265/?/130 April 18 Confessions Part IIHello everyone! As you all may know, I did decide to go out of town for Easter weekend. I must say that I had one of the best times that I have had in a long time. Thank you (you know who you are
 ). Going along with that absoultely FABULOUS time I had, I ate and drank whatever I wanted. This isn't good, I know, but I did. The food was wonderful . . . especially the Easter buffet-style brunch we went to. Even though I did horrible with the eating, I did workout two days by walking/jogging on the treadmill and lifting weights. So, it wasn't a total loss. Now I am totally back on track and ready for my "redemption" days, LOL. I also may not weigh in this week, and give myself an addtitional week to show some sort of loss. We'll see.I am not going to scold myself like I normally do, but I know that I have to work on my eating when I go out of town. I know that I do significantly better while at home, than when on vacation. I had initially planned on only having one cheat day while out of town, but that didn't quite happen. Next time, I have to make that goal a priority and make it actually happen. I did have a really good time, though.
Yesterday, a friend of mine came in town, and we hung out all day. We had a very nice time, but I did not make it to doing my workout. This is mainly because I was still extremely sore from working out on my vacation. Tonight, I am going to make sure that I workout and get back on track with that. I also plan on getting to bed pretty early tonight. I tossed all last night, and I need some make-up sleep.
Gotta go everyone! Have a
day!265/223.2/130 March 27 Confession is Good for the SoulOkay, I'm back from a wonderful trip to Atlanta, and today is the first day of school since returning from Spring Break. I did fairly well all Spring Break long with the exception of two days. Well actually a day and a half. The first day, I went to dinner and had SEVERAL beers. I won't disclose exactly how many I had, but let's say it was more than a few. I also had a few chicken wings and some french fries. I only had a few of those, so that wasn't so bad.
The really bad day was on Saturday. For lunch, I went to Chick-Fil-A and had nuggets and fries. It was so good
, yet so bad . Then, for dinner, I had shrimp parmesan steak with french fries. I only ate half of the steak and my sister split the french fries with me. THEN, I had dessert. That was really bad. Well, I got all of that out of my system, and I ate really well yesterday (Sunday). I also plan on doing very well for the remainder of the week. I weigh in on Saturday, and I am looking for a loss, so I have to be "on it" for the remainder of the week. I really felt bad for my cheat day, but I have to realize that I haven't had an actual cheat day since I began the day after Thanksgiving. It's over now, and the important thing is that I have gotten back on track. It's a good thing that I did because in the past, I've been known to have 7 days worth of cheat days, back to back. THAT is not good. As for my trip, I had a fabulous time. The more time I spend in Atlanta, the more I want to be back there. I am moving, but I am contemplating the best time for me to move, financially. If I move at the end of this school year, I'll still have some major debt, but if I move at the end of next school year, I'll have no real debt and a larger savings account. I guess I could wait one more year. Also, if I wait another school year to move, I should be at my goal weight, and I'd be able to start my next major move with me being the best that I can be, physically, financially, and spiritually (didn't know I've been going back to church
). I'll just make sure that I make frequent visits home. More frequent than I have been doing.Let's talk about exercise. Thursday was a rest day for me and that was the night that I had the several drinks. Needless to say, I didn't get home until 6:30 the next morning. I slept until about 1:30 that afternoon, and just did not have the energy to work out that entire day. So Saturday, I did Friday's workout. Sunday, I did Saturday's workout. Today is suppose to be a rest day. I haven't done Sunday's workout, and I don't think I will because I have four days in a row of workouts to do starting tomorrow. That'll be too much for me. So, I will sub yesterday's workout for a three mile WATP workout. They are about the same length as far as time, but this way, I'll get the extra cardio that I have been wanting to get. Also, I will be able to get a workout in on a regularly scheduled rest day, since I am a day behind. I am okay with this, even though I missed a Firm workout. Most people don't workout at all when they go on vacation, so I did pretty darn well.
 Gotta go,
have a
day!265/231.2/130 June 12 Brief DetourHey everyone!!! It's been quite a while since I have put an entry on here . . . sorry about that Tomorrow, (Monday) I will be tutoring Monday through Thursday, so this will help me eat better as well. I find that when I am bored, I eat more and spend money. So this will be good for my health and my pocketbook Also, I have not been back to the WW meetings since I last reported that I had been. The first missed meeting, I was out of town, and the second missed meeting, I was concerned that I had gained a lot of weight back. Good or bad, I'm going back this Tuesday. I have to know where I stand to work hard at getting back to the point that I was before going on my little detour. I'll be sure to post after my WW meeting Tuesday. Have a fabulous day everyone!!! 265/ ? /130 |
. Well, I must say that I went out of town a week ago, and didn't follow the WW plan. I pretty much ate whatever I wanted. Bad, I know. I got back on track this past Tuesday, but I cheated last night. Today I will have a good day! I really need to tighten up on my eating since I still can not exercise. I went to the podiatrist last Friday, and besides telling me that I have "bad feet," he told me that I really need to stay off my feet as much as possible. He also gave me a very awkward looking brace for my right ankle. I'm trying to do as he suggests because I really need to get back to exercise. Exercising tends to help me to eat better as well.
. So, hopefully I can be good for the rest of the summer. Also, I am moving into a new apartment this weekend, so it will be a pretty hectic week for me.
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